Nothin’ but Negativity???
Ever get sick of people telling you “life will turn around,” “it’s got to get better before it can get worse” and “life’s a rollercoaster filled with highs and lows!” But in the moment people are usually telling you their generic version of life advice… it is the last thing you want to hear.
Trust me! I couldn’t agree more. I sometimes find myself in that exact moment-me begging my friend to just let me suffer in this bland and depressing moment that is my life, but before long their advice always seems to ring true.
One month ago today my life was dramatically different (or at least it felt that way to me.) In March, I felt like I was at my lowest of low points. At the beginning of the year I was laid-off from my first full-time job (and I hadn’t had much luck in the job market sense.) I was rejected from job, after job, after job (including many dream jobs.) I had spent the last 10 months living in the comfort of my childhood bedroom in a house with my parents. My friends were scattered across the country exploring new professions, continuing education, and/or celebrating their accomplishments in life so far. Let’s keep in mind my social life was pretty much non-existent. I had barely been on a real date in almost two years let alone the fancied the idea of having a boyfriend. At the time it seemed like things couldn’t get any worse, but like what they say… when you reach rock bottom the only place to go is up (or in my case, Los Angeles!)…
I was bummed. There was no better way of saying it! After all this disappointment I didn’t know what to do. Ultimately, I laid around in self-pity for a few days until I realized I needed to snap out of it.
I started finding small things to busy my mind, keep me motivated, and keep me day dreaming of all the things I want to accomplish in my live.
Before no time things started to take a turn for the better. I had a job offer for a really great job (well a job that was great on paper.) Then out of the blue, I decided to go on a random date with some stranger just because I had a good gut feeling about it (now I call that stranger my boyfriend.) Then the rest of the time I spent enjoying my friends and family, playing cards and hanging out. It was a this time though, I made the biggest decision of my life-to move to Los Angeles. I decided I was going to move even though I had no job lined up and barely any money in my bank account. I risked it all just so that I could have a shot at making my dreams come true. Yes, you might be thinking, “you’re setting yourself up for more failure,” but I know I can do it and I know it’ll be worth it just to say that I tried.
Again, I just want to mention that I’m sharing my story and experiences from this point forward not because my life is so great and perfect that I think its incredibly important to read about. I’m sharing my real struggles as well as real breaks to help inspire you in whatever journey you find yourself on. I say just go for it, but if you still need more convincing-I’m here for you.